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Weekend!

Oh, boy! Finally! How I've been longing for these two days! I need the relaxation. Best time of the week!

... but what am I going to spend the time with?

Now playing: The Birthday Massacre - Red Stars (YouTube)

Another Level of Depth Revealed

My tongue outsmarted my mind this morning. To my great dismay.

Let's rewind the hours. I visited a close friend after work yesterday. She gave birth to a daughter not too long ago. Don't know why, but the parental caution and watchfulness kicks in when I'm around infants and kids. Perhaps, just perhaps... Never mind that now.

I had the privilege of Pim's company to work again. Due to me coming home late last night, I was dead tired this morning. At the how-are-yous this morning, this was said and I filled in why. The rest of the talk was about children, both friends' and ourselves in younger years and our relationship to our parents. Again, we're frighteningly alike...

That was when my tongue slowly took control over the brain instead of the other way around, the correct chain of command. Those of you who really know me and my life so far know what my tongue revealed on the topic of parents. The expression on Pim's face had something in me break. I've lived with this for many years and I've learned to cope, but the sadness I saw in her face...

I hope I never will see it again.

Paperback Novel

Got my book back from Pim this morning on our way to work. As always, a nice conversation followed. It usually does.

We talked about the upcoming Christmas vacation (her and my plans and what our geographical traditions look like), "our" company's new storage facilities and visiting those, my side projects (was surprised she remembered those since she asked about them), the benefits of some people at work and how those benefits never reach my group. She isn't too interested in those benefits, though. She likes home better. The more she tells me, the more I feel how right it would be...

(This post was better written and formulated before Safari froze on me. This is the rapid re-run...)

You Can Quote Me On That!

I ran across a suiting quote when looking through my desk calendar. The English author and philosopher Sir Francis Bacon (1561 - 1626) once said:

"A wise man will make more opportunities than he finds."

According to this, I'm a wise man. At least in one area where I make a big enough effort. Does it pay off, I wonder. Yes, it does. How well? That I don't know for sure, but I like the ride so far.

Now playing: The 69 Eyes - Forever More

Void

I did something unpleasant today. I let someone down. Myself.

Don't do this to yourselves. Please. A comfort of mine is that I didn't let someone else down. That is far worse.

The Red Scarf

When I got to the subway station on my way home today, the train was already rolling in. Fine, I thought, I'll make it to the last couple of doors before it leaves. That's when I recognized a red scarf not far off in the distance...

Body reacting before mind and I set off toward that red scarf and the woman attached to it. As you all know by now, it was Pim. Another good talk touching on subjects like the upcoming company Christmas party (which none of us will attend and why), workload (as always), plans for the evening... Can't help but sensing something not spoken, underlying. Something in her voice...

When we parted ways, the good-byes were said and I returned to my iPod and here's the funny part. I hadn't shut it down when Pim and I started talking and just as I put the phones in, Barry White's "Love Theme" started playing. Couldn't keep from smiling broadly. What perfect timing...